11/7/23
I go on these manic episodes every time I consume caffeine. They're pretty productive, but I wish I was well-motivated without them.
On a positive note, I've stumbled onto a really nifty idea for a management game after trying Caves of Qud. I'm thinking a Motel Management sim, with randomly generated, powerful artifacts that spawn from the tenants. I think it'd be funny to run a small-town motel while having to simultaneously plan and prepare against an invasion from demons of Hell. Very "small town," I think. I'll call it "Havel's Hotel" or something.
Other than that, I'm excited to plan something with Kylescounty, who I think is a phenomenal artist.
4/29/23
I have trouble with concentrating a lot. I'd love to down a bottle of adderall and not think about it, but it seems we're in a bit of a shortage.
Lately, I've been trying a lot of things - meditation, working out, stopping my prescriptions. Sometimes it works for a bit and sometimes it just makes me more tired.
The cool thing though is that I'm probably on my 6th RE4 Remake playthrough. I absolutely adore the little rewards for hard challenges, like the dumb little wolf tail on Leon for speedrunning on Assisted. I know I'm not the only one who is coveting the cat ears on Leon (I swear, I'm only using it for infinite ammo!).
Another cool thing is that although I do have a lot of trouble working on Marlboro, I am still overall productive the general project. For example, I have been absolutely addicted to trying out random PS2 games on my old Fat. It wastes time, yeah, but I can often find new perspectives and ideas to try implementing. You know what's funny? I got the idea of a stealth system from San Andreas the other day. That kinda janky burglary minigame gave me some ideas.
11/6/22
You know the story. A lot's happened. I've missed you all - all zero of you, hahaha.
Whoever you are (even if it's just me), I hope you have a nice day. As for me, I am constantly overrun by a need to prove myself to the world, an overwhelming sense of ambition that is constantly squandered by playing video games under the pretense of "research".
I'm gonna try to fix that today, if only slightly, by joining the 0 Hour Game Jam. I'm an inexperienced dumbass
As a final note, I want to say that I constantly cringe at my previous writing. What was I thinking? I'll try to be more skilled and genuine from now on. It's a new day and new me.